A passion for passion

While sitting at my desk tonight drenched in self pitty over one persons negitive comment on one of my most viewed videos, I decided to skip the usual video post because I don't like videos that make you feel like the person plastered on a smile and hands you a scripted version of something; and thats what I would have been doing.  So I logged out of YouTube and sat there staring at the computer wondering...What did I do before I became so obsessed with YouTube, and Facebook, and Twitter, and all these medias that made me feel "connected"?  Music. That used to be my escape.  So, I went on a search for specific DVD of a band that used to make me "feel" the music.  After looking through my drawers and cabinents I found it.  I put it into the computer, put my earphones on and turned up the volume.  All those feelings came back instanly.  Songs brought me to tears like they used to, and I honestly have not felt like that about anything for a long time.  I started to wonder why had I ever let this get burried under CDs and mail?   We all move on and leave behind things that make us feel good because we are under the impression that there are more important things in life than the small things that make us feel.  And ther are, but why should we be shunned for being passionate about something that other people might not care about.  There are many things I love: music and makeup and writing.  I know I may not change peoples lives with any of it, but it does make me feel good.  I am far from a superficial person, but I feel like I do need these things in my life to keep me feeling like me.  I can't help but wonder what is it that makes someone passionate about something?  Why do these things touch me?  How can something like music bring me to tears?  There is no way to know.  But I love to embrace it.  I love closing my eyes and feeling the music.  Or writing something that explains an emotion in such depth that you almost feel the same emotion reading it.  I like having emotions wrapped up in things I connect with.  Music and books were created for people like me who search for that connection and get addicted to it like a drug.  I like being a passionate person, it makes me who I am.  "They may forget what you said, but they will never forget how you made them feel." Clips from the DVD 'One Cold Night' by Seether that struck me to write about passion: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dOw4hJUR2Zk&playnext=1&list=PL47620CD2B9444B38 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iX0WYr_vviM http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=apS3XGlSuwA A little insight to Seether: The lead singer/songwriter says that he believes music is and expression for him; All of his songs are autobiographical, nothing fake.  Raw music.  And when he "performs" most of the time he closes his eyes to get back to the place he was emotionally when he wrote the song, and I think that is why I feel like I can connect so well with their music.  He says that its about the expression, not the performance- no fire, no dancing, no choriography, just passion.  That is not something you see in many musicians, especially Rock bands.

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by MrsTank1030

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